Lost

Lost

I feel as if I’m lost,

a cloud drifting in the sky

wandering through life aimlessly

always left wondering, why?

Who am I suppose to be?

What am I suppose to do?

Is there a meaning behind my life?

Or is this just a cleverly constructed ruse?

I wake up every day

simply going through the motions

a single fish among many

swimming through the ocean

I get told I’m doing well in school

my grades are straight A’s

But how can I be on the right track

If I don’t even know the way?

I try to distract myself

I laugh and pretend everything is fine

I try to live in the moment

and not worry about what’s down the line

But when I’m alone in my bed at night

These thoughts of self doubt creep back

into my mind

I’m scared of the future, of failure, being declined

It’s an internal struggle

battling night and day

I try to stay positive,

and keep the needless stress at bay

On these conflicting emotions

I try not to dwell

tell myself to kick back and relax
only time will tell

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